I've never claimed to be a writer, but it's nice to have a place to put my thoughts down once in a while.


Off Kilter

Have you ever had one of those days/weeks that you just aren't yourself? It happens to me every now and then for no particular reason. It's not physical. At least not on the surface. It's just a feeling.

I started out today feeling pretty good. But as the day progressed, I started feeling, I don't know how to describe it. A feeling that things weren't the way they should be. Nothing I could put my finger on, just a general feeling of wrongness. Normal, everyday activities felt wrong. Like I was missing something. Every conversation I saw, every whisper, every glance in my direction made me feel as if I was...wrong.

Sometimes those feelings turn out to be that I've spent too much money. Sometimes it signals that I'm about to start...well...you know. Maybe that's what it is this time. I don't think it's time for that yet, though. Maybe I'm depressed. Maybe I'm just tired, not getting enough sleep.

It's weird. I still feel...unsatisfied with things, but I'm quite happy. I still have my sense of humor. I'm not particularly wanting sympathy or advise. I guess I just need an outlet to express what's inside (although I'm not very good at it).

I think I'll just go to bed. Maybe I'll feel right tomorrow.


Reality Show Reject said...

I know leaving this comment is way late since you posted this over a month ago, but it does sound like depression to me. Not saying you need to be on drugs or anything, but that is exactly how I felt in Cincinnati and I always thought it was homesickness. Never satisfied with anything, always wanting a change, not knowing why, but still having a sense of humor and seeming happy on the outside. Been there, done that. If you need to talk, you know where I'm at!